Frankly, I'm too lazy to start a new blog.
I had this one all set up to start a long time ago, but I never got my shit together and did anything for it. Luckily, I had this one and now my laziness is paying off. Yessss...
There's a lot going on. Scary real-life adult problems. Ugh. Adulthood is so overrated. This is definitely not the shit I expected when I was growing up. I thought I'd be married and popping out babies left and right by now! My job is coming to an end (and possibly a lot sooner than I thought? Waaaaaaaah!), my boyfriend lives in another country, I have no college degree, but I DO have tens of thousands of dollars in student loans to show for it!
I know it's not the end of the world. I know I'm going to somehow make it through everything, but right now, it's all really overwhelming. I wish I could fast forward through this year. Sigh. There's a lot that needs to be figured out and started for moving forward in our relationship--- visas and money and paperwork and waiting. Lots of all of that. Especially the waiting part. That's a whole other post though. Figuring out whats going to happen with my job, potentially having to find a new one, definitely having to find one for summer at least, looking into a real-life job instead, ahhhhhh. 2013, you're a bitch already. I'm hopeful that really awesome things are going to happen *coughhintcough*, but I'm also scared.
Things would be a lot easier if R could just BE here with me... and hopefully in a little over a year, that'll be the case... but right now it's difficult to go through so much and not be able to come home to him, to not get a comforting hug, to not fall asleep next to him. This waiting will all be worth it someday, I know that much.
